8.17.2012

He Picks Us Up


Warning:
I really have no idea how well-written this post is.  I felt so led to just...pour out my heart with y’all...at 11:41 at night.  And, as everyone knows, when it’s that late, Miss Raquel can tend to ramble more than she usually does.  I hope this post speaks to you - that God speaks through me to you.  That is my prayer.

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Do you ever have those days when you feel like such a failure?  When sins and mistakes come back to haunt you...and breathe lies in your ear, telling you that you are a sinner.  That you are a failure.  That you amount to nothing.

And you believe those lies.  Because in a way, they are true.

Everyone has something in their past that they are ashamed of.  Every single one of us.  It may be something that we made a mistake in physically...emotionally...intellectually...or spiritually.  Something that we wish we could forget.  Something we wish we had never done.

We all have regrets.  Regrets of our mistakes and failures.

I know I do.

There are personal things that I have done that...I wish I could erase.  I wish I could go back in time and STOP myself from doing them.  Tell myself just how much of an idiot I am and that I shouldn’t go any further in this sinful indulgence.  I am the first one that would step up and say that I make mistakes.  It’s a part of who I am.  I’m not perfect.  I know a lot of people think I’m this fabulous, beautiful, perfect girl who has such an amazing blog and is surrounded by friends.  But really, people...I fail in life...probably even more than you.

There was a time in my life...a certain chapter...that I felt dead.  I was steeped in this horrid, horrid place of trying to do what I thought was ‘okay’...what I thought was ‘making me feel good’...what I thought I could do, just so long as I didn’t go too far.  And only by the grace of God can I say that I was rescued from it.  I made a mistake...but I learned from it.  I hit a huge bump in the road...and it through me off-track...but I learned from it.
It takes healing, though.  Falling hurts.  And the pain is sometimes, seemingly unbearable.  But when you fall, you have the best Healer to pick you up.  Someone who loves you so, so dearly that He is willing to pick you up...to fondle you...to hold you...to caress you...to tell you that He loves you...no matter what mistakes you’ve made.  No matter how much you’ve failed.  No matter how many times you’ve failed.

No matter how many times we fail, God will never NOT be there to pick us up.  He will never get tired of us asking for His forgiveness.  Granted, that doesn’t mean we should continue on in whatever we’re doing.  But if we make a mistake, He is faithful and just to forgive us.  In fact, He already did.  A long time ago...when He felt three spikes being driven into His wrists and feet.  As He hung there - bleeding, in pain, and suffering from feeling all the dirty sin that He had never, ever felt before...He felt the wrath of God the Father being poured out on Him, killing Him...for my sins.  For your sins.  For all the mistakes and failures that you and I will ever make in life.  All of that has been paid for, covered by His blood.

'In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace.' //Ephesians 1:7

It takes time to heal.  It took me...a while (and many encouraging people...whom I love so dearly), to truly see how much God loves me...and has forgiven me.  No matter what I have done in my past, He has forgiven me.  He looks beyond that, into who He is creating me to be.  He has my life story all written out.  And He used all those little incidents...all those little mistakes...and failures...and falls...and hurt...to continue to mold and make me into who He wants me to become.

Dear readers, I know a lot of you think I’m some incredible person.  But really.  The Miss Raquel you know through this blog...is full of sin and mistakes.  She fails every single day.  If you think she’s amazing - if you think that she’s beautiful - if you think that she’s incredible in what she does - if you think she’s encouraging - if you think she’s a blessing - if you think of ANYTHING that you like about her...it’s only because you see what Jesus has done in and through her.  None of her amazingness is her.  None of her beauty...none of her encouragement...none of her writings...nothing is done by her.  The Miss Raquel who you know is only a tool in the hand of the Mighty King.  She is only an instrument being finely tuned by the Master Musician.  A light kept burning by the fire of love that she has for her Savior...and He has for her.  She sins every day.  She makes mistakes every day.  But she has come to the knowledge that her God is bigger than any mistake she can ever make.  That her King can look past any blemish on her because it has been covered by the Prince of Peace.  That she can smile and be happy and radiant...because she is loved with an everlasting love that only God the Trinity can bestow on her.

Glory be to God.


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It takes a while to truly realize how forgiven you really are.  Sometimes you just need someone to tell it to your face for you to really understand.  God uses different people in many different ways - and speaks through them to His children.  Words coming out of the mouth of someone can really be God’s words to you.  Everyone has struggled - or still is struggling - with something from their past.  Even you - the person reading this.  If you haven’t come to the knowledge of just how much God loves you and has forgiven you, I would encourage you to find someone who can pray for you.  Someone you trust, who you feel comfortable pouring out your heart to them.  And who can encourage and lift you up (parents are #1 for this).  You don’t always have to give details about your mistakes...because they’re in the past.  Some failures are only meant to be known between you and God.  Don’t live in fear, dear reader.  God can free you from any bondage of sin.

13 comments:

  1. This was such an amazing post, I believe God did speak through you. This really spoke to me, thank you, and glory to God for what He does through His children. <3

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  2. I've been waiting for this post since I saw your FB status last night.

    It met all of my expectations and more.

    Raquel, thank you for being open, honest, sharing your heart, willing to be vulnerable, oh-so-achingly beautiful in your words, and pointing me to the Truth.

    Glory be to God!

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  3. This was great, Raquel. Really, really great. So true. Thank you for posting this!

    God bless you!
    Joy :)

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  4. This was so powerful, Raquel. You put into perfect words what every believer should know. And yes, I needed that Kleenex. ;)
    xo

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  5. Raquel, I needed this today. God brought my focus back on Him... through you. Thank you

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  6. Miss Raquel, Thank you for sharing what is on your heart. This was such a blessing to read this morning. I could tell that these words came straight from your heart and they really spoke to me and encouraged me. May the Lord bless you for your openness and encouragement through blogging. :)

    ((hugs!))

    -Madi

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  7. Amen,Amen,Amen!! i soooo needed this post. I am constantly day to day, always failing, at everything. it is driving me insane. I never seem to be able to do anything right.
    Thank you for reminding me that God is bigger:)
    Em;)

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  8. Really needed to hear this. Thanks, Raquel! :)

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  9. Raquel, words cannot express how much I needed this today. I ould just see you sitting at the computer, typing away, pouring out your heart to all of us readers. There were so many parts of this that picked me up today. The part about only being beautiful because God makes you that way. The part about still being able to be happy and radiant because you are loved by God. Man Raquel, this was just beautiful, amazing, wonderful, and encouraging.
    Please keep writing, because you will never know when someone needs your encouragement ♥

    ~Molly~
    mollyslittlecorner.blogpsot.com

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  10. Your posts always speak to me and encourage me. Thank you! Youve helped me so much!

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  11. Thank you Raquel, I really needed this.

    Hannah

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  12. I needed this SO much today. Thank you so much!

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  13. Beautiful post Raquel, I loved it and could totally relate. Thanks for sharing your heart!

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