5.24.2013

For what it's worth




    "So I like this girl..."

    I looked up from my laptop.  My friend was over, doing homework with me.  He sat on the couch across from me, his long legs stretched out, resting on the coffee table.  I sat in my favorite plush leather chair.  This was one of our favorite places to hang out.
    But wait.  Did he just say he liked a girl?
    "Yes?" I raised my eyebrows, waiting for him to go on.  "I didn't know you liked anyone."
    My heart started to feel like it was being gently squeezed.
    No, I told myself.  He's my friend.  Just my friend.
    "I've been meaning to tell you - since you're, like, my best friend," he smiled and winked at me.
    I swallowed hard and looked back down at my computer screen so he couldn't see my eyes.  "Well, I'm glad you finally told me."
    He swung his legs down from the table and sat up, resting his arms on his knees.  "Yeah, well I'm telling you cuz I wanted to ask you if you think I should tell her or not?  I don't want to make hers and my friendship awkward at all, so I don't know if I should just leave it the way it is or say something or what."  The way he moved his hands while he talked always made me smile.  But right now, my lips couldn't seem to cooperate to smile.  My heart was beginning to feel sad.
    I should've said something.  I should've told him sooner that my feelings for him have been changing.  But no!  He's always said how much he's glad he has me as a friend.  Just a friend.  Just as a girl-friend who doesn't like him, doesn't have a secret crush on him.  But, I guess I've already destroyed that...and now it's too late.
    "So what do you think?"
    I jumped a little, bringing my thoughts back to the present.
    "I think you should tell her," I said.  "You should tell her before someone else does."
    He nodded slowly, looking at the carpet.  "You're right.  I just don't know how to."
    "Well, for starters, what do you like about her?"
    He stood up from the couch and walked to the nearest window.  It overlooked my family's front yard.  Rain was gently falling and it gave everything a fresh, spring glow.  Silence reigned in the living room for a full minute before he spoke.
    "She's kind and gentle, but can be crazy and fun all at the same time.  She's absolutely beautiful.  When she smiles, my heart just kind of stops.  And the way she laughs makes me laugh too.  She's supportive.  She's a dreamer.  She wants to do great things with her life."  He turned and looked at me.  "She's amazing."
    I blinked.  "She sounds amazing."
    He rubbed his chin thoughtfully.  "I...I think I know what I would say to her."
    I squeezed my eyes shut for a second, trying to ward off the tears. 
    I'm his best friend.  I need to be supportive of this attraction he holds for this girl, regardless of if I wish it was...me.
    "I would go up to her and say," he paused for a breath, then continued. "I would say 'I know we've been friends for a long time.  But over the last few months, I've really felt my feelings changing towards you.  They've been changing into feelings that are ones of romance, and not of just friendship.  I'm sorry it's taken me so long to tell you this, but I wanted to tell you before some other guy does.  And for what it's worth, I just want you to know that...I like you.  A lot.' "
    Silence reigned in the room again.
    "That's beautiful," I told him.  "That's...perfect."  I sniffed.  "Sorry, my allergies."
    I grabbed a kleenex from a nearby tissue box that I'm so glad my mother insisted we have in the living room.
    "Any girl would be honored for you to tell her that," I tried to smile at him.
    He walked over to my seat, till he was standing directly in front of me.
    I looked up at him. "Really," I said, emphasizing how amazing his little speech had been.
    He reached down, took my laptop, and placed it on the coffee table.  Then he took my hands and gently pulled me up.
    "I didn't know allergies made people cry," he smiled, softly.
    I pulled one of my hands away from him and brushed a hand over my face.  I felt something wet on my fingers and scolded myself inwardly.  "They do sometimes," I mumbled.
    "Hey," he said, taking my hand again.  "Look at me."
    Stop crying, stop crying.  Hold the tears back.
    I slowly looked up at him.
    "I know we've been friends for a long time.  But over the last few months, I've really felt my feelings changing towards you.  They've been changing into feelings that are ones of romance, and not of just friendship.  I'm sorry it's taken me so long to tell you this, but I wanted to tell you before some other guy does.  And for what it's worth, I just want you to know that...I like you.  A lot."
    I stared at him, not knowing what to say.  How could he torture me like this?  I already told him that those words were beautiful.
    He smiled at me and gently brushed another tear away with his thumb.  His blue-green eyes twinkled.  "Do I need to say it again?"
    "I don't know," I sniffed.  "Why are you telling me anyway?  It's perfect.  Those words are beautiful.  You should go tell them to that lucky girl right now.  She'll fall for you after the first three sentences."
    "I am telling them to her right now.  Though I wouldn't consider her the lucky one.  If she fell for me, I would be the lucky one."
    I searched his face, trying to see if what he was saying was really meant for me.  Were these words meant for my ears?  Was everything he just said directed at me? 
    Everything about his eyes and his smile told me that he was telling truth.
    I didn't know what to do.
    I looked down and smiled.  I couldn't stop smiling.  I couldn't say anything, but at least my face could show how happy I was.
    He leaned close and touched his nose to my hair, his lips close to my forehead.

    "For what it's worth...I like you," he whispered.

38 comments:

  1. this is amazing. beautiful. stunning.
    I. Love. It. So. Much.

    You are an incredibly good writer. This is the best you've written yet. Ah!

    ~Madi

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  2. Whoah! Is this a writing, or did this really happen??

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  3. Oh my gosh, oh my gosh... Raquel!!! This is sooooo amazing and sweet!! Ahh this is so awesome!!

    Love,
    Hannah

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  4. Is this a beautiful written story or is this YOUR beautiful written story. :)

    What a beautiful way to tell a girl he likes her. ☺

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  5. Awwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!! That was so beautiful. :)

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  6. Oh my word-that is absolutely beautiful! I got tears in my eyes reading it. :)

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  7. Oh, Raquel...this is absolutely beautiful.

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  8. Oh my goodness; I almost started crying! That was just so beautiful!!

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  9. Did this happen to you, or was it just something you wrote?

    xo,
    RN

    www.rachelnicoleblog.com

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  10. OH MY GOODNESS. i just died. This is seriously adorable, and oh so sweet. Beautiful, Raquel!! ;)

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  11. Lovely story, Raquel :) You're a really good writer.

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  12. Wow, what a beautiful post Raquel. How I wish this could really happen in my own life! what a lovely post- thank you for sharing Raquel!!!

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  13. aw that's so beautiful :) :) so sweet... oh my word :)

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  14. You're a good storyteller, Raquel. ;) Looooved it!

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  15. Awwwww!!!! SO sweet!!! I melted...literally! :P so beautiful :)
    You are an amazing writer! :)
    Xxx

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  16. Oh please keep writing these!! They are truly beautiful!

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  17. aw! i could have thought this was real. adorable raquel. xx

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  18. PLEASE KEEP WRITING THESE THEY ARE TOO CUTE AND I CRY EVERYTIME. <3

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  19. OH MY GOSH you're best writer in the entire world. my heart goes "awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww" everytime.

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  20. IS THIS FOR REAL!??!??!?!?!?!? Cuz like holy crap, that was like the cutest thing EVER. And seriously Raquel, if you write a book, I think you'll become like my new favorite author!!! ;)

    Love,
    manda
    http://meandjesus-amanda.blogspot.com

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  21. Is it true????????????? Is it?

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  22. this was adorable. i think we've all dreamt of being that girl few times. so beautifully captured. :)

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  23. AHHHH stawp it! it's too much! I'm falling in love with these kinds of posts...

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  24. This is ADORABLE. I can't stop smiling now. (:

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  25. Is this real? Did it happen to you or someone you know? Even if it isn't, it's an amazing story!! So sweet! :)

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  26. Aaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! My heart is going all pitter-patter!!! It's sooooo cute. Way too perfect. I love this. I'm just... too gushy to make any sense right now. This is too perfect.

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  27. You are such a talented writer! Lovely. Honestly, words cannot describe how much I love this. Soo sweet!

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  28. Awww, this was the sweetest! ♥

    ~Molly~
    mollyslittlecorner.blogspot.com

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  29. Raquel!! You have succeeded in making me cry. Again.

    <3 This is amazing, girl! Xo!

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  30. I'm dying to know if it's real ;)

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  31. Okay, this was the third adorable story you've put on here... (that I've read, anyway). I wasn't sure if they were real experiences or just awesome writing. Now i'm pretty sure they were written. THIS MAKES ME SAD! I wanted them to be real!!! :( Dern...

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  32. This is SO amazing! It kept my attention & is so sweet :)

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  33. I love the romantic short stories you write! This one I think is a story a lot of us can relate to. It's very brave of you to write something like this, since so many young ladies are afraid to approach the topic of romance in their writing. Great job, Raquel!

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  34. out of all the love stories you have written, this one is my absolute favorite!!! When will you write more?

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