You want so many things, but you feel you can never attain them.
Your heart aches.
It's a constant struggle.
And always seems to worsen at night.
You feel alone in this battle with your emotions and thoughts.
You know that God has a plan, but the process is never pleasant.
You feel useless and like you should be doing something but you don't know what
So you're kinda just stuck
In this 'Trust God and Be Patient' sort of box.
Makes you upset.
Because you're asking God to USE you
SHOW you what He wants you to do...
And then you get in bed but can't sleep,
So you start thinking about how much better it'd be to have someone to cuddle with
And talk to
And someone who cares enough to feel and understand your heart
Even if you don't say a word
You start thinking about not having that and get really lonely.
The whole night turns into hell.
Do you ever have those kinds of days? And nights?
You're not alone.
I get those too sometimes. And the best thing to be reminded of is that I'm not the only one who struggles with it.
I get lonely easily. I have to be careful about what I talk about and who I'm with and what I watch or read cuz small things can trigger it.
But I want you to know that you're important to me. And I want you. In my life. I want you to stick around for a really really long time.
I believe everyone in our lives is in it for a reason. I don't know why God allowed us to meet but I'm thankful He did. And for however long of time He allows us to know each other, I am thankful for it.
This was inspired from a talk I had with a friend the other night. I wanted to publish it on my blog and let others know that they aren't alone in their struggles, even when it feels like they are.