Believing that God is in control even amidst our anxiety, heartache or grief is, without a doubt, one of the most difficult places to be in life. I have struggled with this many times, in many circumstances. But in every instance, I have come to realize the truth of God's sovereignty in new and more intimate ways. Each time, I had to decide if I would trust Him, even when my heart was aching within me.
Learning to obey God doesn't come overnight. It's a process. Just as is trusting Him. We trust Him one circumstance at a time. It's a choice we must make, otherwise our human nature will take over and our brains will burst into chaos.
"Trusting God is not a matter of my feelings, but of my will," says Jerry Bridges in his book 'Trust God: Even When Life Hurts'.
This statement is so true. Our decision must be conscience-based, not emotional.
How many of you feel like letting go of what you're trying to handle or fix, and trust it all to God during times of great ordeal? Uhh, none of us. But you can choose to do so, even if you don't feel like it. Jerry Bridges later says, "The act of will, though, must be based on belief, and belief must be based on truth."
Are you standing on His Truth? On His promises? Do you believe it? Do you believe Him?
When you indeed surrender, God will ask you for your life. For everything and everyone you love. And you need to give everything over to Him. Let Him strip you of all you hold dear. And when you're left with nothing, you will see that He is all you need.
'We won't be fully satisfied when we get what we want. Because God loves us and wants us to find our satisfaction in Him, He won't allow us to be satisfied. To believe that we'll finally be happy when we get what we want is a lie.'
- Stephen Altrogge